I lie on my bed, tears trickling down my cheeks, my mind reeling with questions. I feel so ashamed. Ashamed of every fiber of my existence, of what I claim to own.
I cry. I pray. I ponder. My life, my actions must be in harmony… And I'm finding they don’t go deep enough… I feel ashamed and rightly so.
Have I been living a lie all this time?
My flesh denies the thought. Yet I believe it to be partially accurate, for if I was truly living, breathing, absorbing the words I speak, my life would be reflecting Christ more fully than it is today. I need a reset, a hard reset. And that, by God’s grace, I’m going to have.
Away with a life of mediocrity. In with a life of revolution.
These are the things I want. These are the things I need. These are the things I crave.
To be the revolution I want to see.
no words.
ReplyDeleteOh Glesni! Yes!
ReplyDelete"Away with a life of mediocrity. In with a life of revolution."
Yes, it's what I want and what I need!
Mm.. what can I say?
ReplyDeleteYes! A reset... me too!
ReplyDeleteOh how I need that reset...now. My life is so very different from this time last year. But I can't be satisfied with how it is now. I want a hard reset. I'll pray for you my friend, pray for me.
ReplyDeleteDefinitely praying for you… Thanks for your prayers as well.
DeleteYour welcome, and thank you.
DeleteThanks for sharing this, sister. I fear I've been living a lie too. Words are meaningless without corresponding action... Praise God we can hit 'reset', through His grace!
ReplyDeleteI am forever indebted to grace…
DeleteYour phrase "the words I speak". oooh... the nothingness of words. What I write, I say, I preach, I listen too...not enough. I join the cry for deeper, far deeper. This is Revolution in me.
ReplyDeleteThanks Gles.
Right, Nessa… So right. What we say is nothing. Who we are is everything.
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